Such a cold, cold day out today.
Jon has a long to-do list and so do I, so we figured we’d spend the day working on those. Unfortunately, the very first item on our lists ended up taking much more time than it should have.
We went to look at a house for sale in our community. I was kind of excited about this even though we can’t buy a new house right now. This home had beautiful main floor and yard pictures, and fit our criteria, which is VERY rare.
1) Home must be in our current neighbourhood, as we love the kids’ school and don’t want to transfer out.
2) Home must have 4+ bedrooms and 2+ bathrooms.
3) Home must cost $300,000 or less.
It looks easy enough. However, our area of the city has a lot of basements suited, and that is something I do not want. I would like a single-family home. Preferably not a duplex. No fridge and stove in the basement. In our neighbourhood – incredibly rare.
The house we looked at today really needed a lot of work. I was a little disappointed, but not too much, because the truth is, we still couldn’t break even selling our house at the same price that the last house in our condo complex went for ($177,000 earlier this month). We bought over seven years ago. Thankful that we are paying a mortgage and not rent, but disappointed that home prices in our area keep dropping.
Anyway…we went back out to the van after checking out the house and it would not start. We popped the hood and Jon tried to call someone. Many many vehicles drove by. No one offered help.
Jon and Andrew ran home to see if the car would start. It did and they returned with blankets, scarves, mitts, hats and booster cables to jump start the van (which worked only after 3-4 tries).
We figured since we needed to drive around a bit anyway, we’d head to Toys R Us to get a birthday gift for a friend whose party Andrew was going to tonight. Jon followed me there and I left the van running under his watchful eye while I took the kids into the store. My toes were icicles for hours.
This day has emotionally sapped me. I am grateful that we have a warm house that we kind of own, but I’m sad that we can’t find any others out there that suit my wish list. I am grateful for our old car and van, but our trusty mechanic has told us that our van is on its last “legs” and that we should not put anymore money into it. Today it wouldn’t start, for no logical reason at all. I think we are getting close to having to say goodbye. I am grateful that our hot water tank still gives us a little hot water, but I wish I could run a tub full and relax in an Epsom salt bath. Today I also found more cavities in my teeth; they are essentially disintegrating and with no dental coverage now…well, I just have to sit by and let it happen for awhile. Money issues don’t usually cause me strife. I know that it will all work out eventually, especially since we are good stewards of our resources, but every now and then…well…I just wish it could be a little easier.
The obvious answer is for me to go out and get a full-time job. But that comes with a cost to myself and five others, immediately, plus even more others in an indirect way. Every day brings us all one step closer to this moment. It will be earth-shattering when it happens.